My Story

Hello world! My name is Heather Jay and I have a story to tell you about the wild ride that the universe has taken me on. Over the last four years, I have been on a tumultuous, albeit enlightening and healing journey. In 2017, I was diagnosed with breast cancer, and have undergone three surgeries since then. I refused chemo and radiation because my intuition told me that I needed to detox my body, not flood it with harsh chemicals. Upon diagnosis, I immediately started reading books on detoxification, nutrition, energy and sound healing, meditation, as well as the ways in which limiting belief systems affect health. I inadvertently started a deep inner journey, and now, in hindsight, I realize that it was the most powerful and uplifting path I could have taken. If I had to do it all over again, I wouldn’t change a thing.

This journey taught me how to take my power back from family and friends, the allopathic medical community, and anyone else who tried to tell me what I should do with my body. As a result of this experience, I learned how powerful and resilient I am, and in turn, how powerful and resilient humans are. We are infinite souls having a human experience, and every single one of us on this planet has the ability to heal themselves. In fact, no one else can heal us. Only we can heal ourselves. It is my belief that dis-ease does not start in the physical body. Rather, it starts in the energy body that surrounds us. The energy body gives us many signals and signs before it moves into the physical body. If we ignore those signs, like I did for many years, it manifests into dis-ease.

I first became aware of energy when I was a little girl, though I didn’t have the language to express it at the time. I can remember feeling, seeing, and sensing energy all around me. I would write about the energy I felt inside and would refer to it as “the energy of armies”. I wasn’t like other kids, in part because I cried a lot. I am what I now know as an intuitive empath, or an indigo child. With that uniqueness and extreme sensitivity came ridicule and misunderstanding. In order to protect myself, I buried my gifts and emotions deep down inside and pretended that they didn’t exist. My mother was the same. She was an intuitive empath and was also highly depressed because she did not know how to express this side of herself. Her sudden death in 2013 made my depression much worse than it already was. I was almost defeated. Without knowing it, my subconscious began to move me toward my own death.

My relationship with my mother had been difficult my entire life. She intuitively knew I was gay and had rejected me at a very young age. When I officially came out at around 19, she ended our relationship. I was absolutely heartbroken. A few years before her death, we slowly began to mend our relationship. There came a point where I could not bear living without her so I vowed to call her every day and tell her I loved her. I didn’t care whether she responded or not. I had to let her know. For my sanity, not for her; it was a selfish act. And what we will come to learn is that selfish acts sometimes benefit the whole, such as when we prioritize self-care, or the regular practice of self-love. Eventually those words slowly sunk in and she started having conversations with me again which elated me. However, her death abruptly stopped this process and made me very angry. I didn’t know what to do with this anger and depression other than take substances to numb the deep pain I was feeling. Burying my emotions was all I knew, until everything caught up with me.

What I have learned through my studies and inner journey is that dis-ease stems from unexpressed emotion. It gets stuck inside our physical bodies, in weak areas—in our muscles, cells, interstitium, fascia, etc. This causes a density and stagnation to accumulate. The unexpressed emotion which manifests as pain longs to be heard and seen. When one learns how to talk to and work with the pain, when one can direct consciousness and breathe slowly towards it, and when one floods it with light and love, it starts to morph and transform. Qigong, which is an ancient form of Chinese energetics that has supported me in my journey, teaches us that our physical bodies communicate through pulses and waves. In Qigong philosophy, we are made of energy (qi) that is malleable (in fact, the “gong” portion of the word means “to cultivate”). Quantum physics supports this ancient wisdom. We can infer then, from this information, that sound is an extremely effective way to move and transform energy blockages. Our bones and the water in our bodies are powerful resonating structures.

I have taken many sound healing classes and have been working with my own voice to release and cultivate energy through toning sounds. Prior to this exploration, I had gotten so bogged down by stress and work that I had forgotten how joyful it is to sing. Singing feels so good because it is healing and it comes from our soul. In synchronicity, my surgeon was known as the “singing surgeon” because she sings to her patients before surgery (more on this at a later date because there is so much here to unpack). I can confirm that our voices carry healing codes and the more we use them in deliberate ways, with intentions and prayers, the more capable we become of healing ourselves. In my view, it is no coincidence that singing in churches during lockdowns was banned while liquor stores were free to operate without restrictions. I have first-hand knowledge of how damaging alcohol is to our immune systems, but I digress.

I am still on this healing journey. And I am absolutely enjoying every single minute of it. It is not about the destination. Diamonds form because of intense stress. We evolve because of intense stress. Infinite expansion is what we are constantly moving towards. To me, every moment is a gift and from what I have discovered, healing is a process that could happen overnight, or it could take years, perhaps even a lifetime. There are many factors involved.

We might ask, is our dis-ease lodged in another timeline, or in a parallel life? I and other healers would suggest that if we access our akashic records, it may be possible to delete the core cancer program as well as other dis-ease programs. The question then becomes, is your soul truly ready to heal? Do you believe that you can heal? Have you learned all the lessons which the dis-ease carries? Though I still have masses in my breast, and perhaps in my sternum (the latter, based on my last scan in 2019), I no longer fear them and therefore, they have lost their power over me. Once one eradicates the program of fear of death, there is nothing else to be scared of. There is so much power in re/programing fear and transforming it into love, most especially when one understands just how powerful self-love is. All love stems from self-love. Love and gratitude are the highest vibrations that exist and are made of pure potential capable of anything. I believe with my whole heart and soul that cancer will not kill me. And my angels concur. I have many beings in other dimensions helping and supporting me. I feel them moving energies in my body regularly. Success comes from never giving up. I.WILL.NEVER.GIVE.UP.

Throughout my healing journey, I have often questioned the Allopathic rhetoric of cancer and how it impacts people upon diagnosis. Perhaps one solution is as simple as eradicating limiting belief systems, especially those that pertain to dis-ease. When I was diagnosed, I didn’t have any symptoms, but I was tired, chronically stressed, and overworked. I came to the realization that our bodies are capable of handling much more than we think. This reminds me of a virus that we have been told can exist without symptoms, which in turn causes perfectly healthy people to think that they are sick. Could it be that the one-sided messaging or programming concerning all of these dis-eases (rather than the dis-eases themselves), along with the prescribed and imposed one-size-fits-all Allopathic treatments, is what is killing people? Sadly, confusion and darkness dominate our current cultural and medical landscape, which is causing many people to suffer. I believe the suffering is unnecessary.

Darkness cannot exist in the light. Light is information, and darkness is the lack of information. Let’s shine some light on the darkest of corners by having these discussions with curiosity and compassion.  

Follow me through this journey and I will tell you more!

In service to Love and Light,

Heather Jay